It's the end of one of entertainments biggest weekends in Los Angeles, Grammy weekend. Since Friday, music, film, and fashion aficionados have been clamouring around gifting suites, designer studios, and endless buffets of food and cocktails. Promotion of official and not-so-official parties have been hype message of every promoter, dee-jay, and publicist from downtown to the valley and everywhere in-between. I can remember when the excitement of it all drove me to seek out my own invitiations to parties and red carpet events where I could possibly be seen and be "discovered" in some capacity. Through freelance journalistic feats, I was afforded the opportunity to be an under the radar guest at most events and add yet another vision board picture of me on the red carpet to my collection. But the drive toward my claim to fame has shifted from 1st gear to 2nd this year and, although I would probably have been out and about tonight if I weren't for feeling a bit sick, I have a new perspective on my drive.
I was watching the 60 minute interview with Beyonce and the commentator said something along the lines of her fame not stemming from tabloid hype, but raw talent and that she is the real deal. Among all the things that Beyonce stated in her interview, she said that her success wasn't something that came overnight, yet something that she worked on doing since a child. She also said that her ambition to do all the things that she has done comes from a place of wanting to go all the way with what she has started. I couldn't understand this notion more than right now. This reminded me of the phrase that my mother always tells me, "my talents SHALL make a way for me." Instead of focusing on trying to have people see me and take notice, I am focusing on my talents. I am focusing on what I love to do, simply because I love to do it and am believing that everything else will fall into place.
To be driven to succeed at what you love can come from many different places. Mines come from the look that my mother gives as she watches how I long to attain my heart desires, it comes from the shared dreams between my sisters, it comes from watching an International celebrity like Beyonce. But, most of all, it comes from feeling the beat of my own heart, the rush in my own veins, the spirit inside of me telling me to stay focused and to never give up. It's funny how I view my life from future perspective most of the time. As I write this blog, I am thinking about how I will tell of what drove me to write this from Oprah's couch or sitting in a chair next to Regis and Kelly. And what I will tell them is that my drive came from a place of knowing; A place that my sister Gwen encourages me to visit often. She tells me to say, "I don't know how I am going to [fill in the blank], all I know is that I do now and I am fulfilled."
My story will not be like Beyonce's for numerous reasons, but MY story will be told. Will yours?
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Hey Takeisha!
Thanks for the comment on my shaking bed experience. That is a great way too look at it. I need to shake up all kinds of things in my life. Sometimes I feel like the movie Groundhogs Day, just the same thing over and over. See you Saturday!